will i die
Woe is me. This morning I decided to simply do whatever i was asked.
I was productive. cooperative. quiet.
I was asked to help wrap the chairs in tarps. on the porch.
I did this. Unbeknown to me, there was a shard of glass on the porch.
A narrow, long, bone-shank like shard of glass.
It went right into my big toe at least half an inch if not further.
Tetanus shot is in my arm. wound has been properly debrided, twice. Massaged, to encourage blood flow. Contemplating epsom salt bath. salt bath applied. No additional blood flow observed. I should not have debrided then sealed the wound with superglue. For some wounds, yes. For this one, no.
Clindamycin 300mg thrice daily provided. Which I havn’t yet taken.
Why did michelle only have 15 minutes for me? and why recommend this drug?
Because it concentrates in the bone area, and the puncture may have reached the bone.
However:
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3917410/
https://accpjournals.onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/abs/10.1592/phco.23.1.101.31920
i took one dose.
the risks are profound: its highly caustic. i have stomach ulcer issues and delayed gastric emptying already. from the first dose- a single dose- kills off most bacteria in your gut, which tells any c.diff to move in. so now, i gotta be up for, i guess, 4 more hours, so i can down some yogurt and probiotics, and I gotta weather any gastric issues that come. i cant lay down. im eating banana and drinking water- a lot of water- and going to walk to help it clear.
Why did the shard of glass have to be there?
Caveats: ive had dreams of the future.
ive also died before and had to go back and live this life again and make incremental progress. unbelievable i know- its obscene
I have no way of knowing if the future i am dreaming of is a future i’ll get to live now or ever. I had a dream- it was 2035, i had a gf, i was praising jesus, i had a laptop, i was in my own home. far from here and far from this day.
I dont know what i had to go through to get there. I dont know if - if i dont take the antibiotics, will i then die, have to go back- have to relive this life and do these things AGAIN? these things I distinctly disliked doing already?
and now we endure the storm.
After the single dose- i stopped because I shit myself.
next day: I bathed my foot again in epsom salts twice. a little weeping but not much at all. I massaged it several times. the toe is buzzing internally a bit here and there. I continue- banana, probiotics, monolaurin, yogurt, walking and massaging.
Sunday: no liquid comes out. i bathe the foot once, and keep it wrapped. i dont feel it at all really, only a little mild buzzing here and there.
Sunday night: a big black spider falls on my thigh and i smack it off. it scares the piss out of me. i contort and throw my back out in the process. that corrected, and the fear past, the spider didnt bite or i was saved by an angel. The leg continues to be moderately weird, with some twitching.
Monday: no discomfort in morning. changed bandaid, sanitized, more neosporin. really nothing. Buzzing continues deep in toe intermittently. Walking- knee feels off, like tendon issues. Is this due to postural changes from walking on it weird and using a different shoe for that foot when I was walking?
I feel warm all over but it feels like histamine warmth. it comes and goes. my tooth continues to ache intermittently. it comes and goes. my dentists office continues to not respond to my calls.